M-I-C, see you real soon, NOT likely (not a suicide note).
K-E-Y, because we LOVE you, NOT either. Simply, I care!
I tried. I really, really tried. I went against my own introvert and antisocial instinct and character to take back healthcare and MAKE HEALTHCARE GREAT AGAIN! for self and others and I failed. I wrote a book and exposed my vulnerabilities never to get them back. I tried social media and did the same, exposed my vulnerabilities, trying to spread interest and recruit companions. I presented at conferences and did the same, again, exposed my vulnerabilities, trying to spread interest and recruit companions. And none of it worked. I tried. I really, really tried, and I failed.
Twelve October Two Thousand Seventeen was the 5th anniversary of “The Customer Is NEVER Right: A Nurse Practitioner’s Perspective.” That day came and went without a mention of the day's significance to everything that has passed since 12 October 2012, the book's publishing date. That day came and went in part because I was in Puerto Rico helping others recover from the total devastation Hurricane Maria left behind after making landfall 20 September 2017. With that destruction was the lack of Internet access, which did not allow me to post the book's anniversary.
The lack of Internet access is what I would like to blame it on. However, as much as I hate to fail at anything I must recognize that I have failed. For the past five years, I have tried to bring awareness to our nation's silent national crisis--that rating healthcare has done nothing for healthcare but leave behind an overwhelming amount of collateral damage.
Despite it being a message that resonates with healthcare workers everywhere I was not able to convince anyone to help me push back. I get it. This is a very provocative message and no one wants to be unemployed. Thus, I blame no one.
Knowing that I started the journey alone thinking I might convince some to tag along. That has not been the case, and no one's fault as the battle is all uphill on a wet and slippery dirt road.
Knowing it would be a fierce battle to take on and with great risk, I never invited anyone to join me. The reason, I did not want anyone to be labeled or associated with this struggle and them losing their job, as I have so many times. Second, I did not, and do not, want to owe anyone for tagging along as I would feel obligated to subdue my intention in their best interest and that would not serve our intent of challenging the system and the status quo.
Nonetheless, I tried it on my own and after so much time, effort, and money invested I have accomplished absolutely nothing, other than a lot of time, effort, and money wasted.
In the book, I mentioned my desire to accomplish something for healthcare as the profession had given me so much and I wanted to return the favor. However, never did I consider taking healthcare back to be that accomplishment. But, because of the struggle to push back against the status quo and MAKE HEALTHCARE GREAT AGAIN! I could never establish myself to accomplish anything for healthcare.
Regret? No! Because although I have not accomplished anything for healthcare I have helped many, around the planet, whether paid or as a volunteer. Thus, in that regard, helping others, I have accomplished more than most on the planet. While not a goal to accomplish more than others; what I have done for others gives me a sense of contributing rather than taking from the planet.
What I am regretful about is the time wasted in trying to take healthcare back and MAKE HEALTHCARE GREAT AGAIN! Time I could have spent with my greatest supporter, my Life [wife]. And to her, and only her, am I sorry.
To those I met along the way thank you very much for supporting me on this journey and I wish you all the very best! DO NOT give up on your projects and/or journeys, as I have. More important, be careful and continue to look out for one another.
Again, I tried. I really, really tried, and I failed.
On that note, ADIOS!